Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I need to get out of my funk...

I have been in a serious funk lately, and need to get out of it. I don't really feel like creating anything. With the tanking of Etsy and the economy, I feel like giving up. I have been looking for a part time job, but so are a million other people. There are days when I really wish I had just gone to school for cosmetology. There are tons of job openings around here for hair stylists. I think I would have been good. I can't go to school for it because there isn't one close enough, and I have no idea how long we will be in this town. We haven't been able to have kids yet, and that process doesn't seem to be going anywhere. I am at a point where I really feel like I have no idea what the heck I am supposed to do with my life. I am very much stuck in limbo and feel some days like I am the main character in Ground Hog Day, where I wake up to the same thing every morning. One of my personality quirks is that if I am not being successful at something, it is really easy for me to get down and discouraged. I need to actively be involved in something, and have had the entreprenurial bug since I was a little girl. It is in my blood. I get one life here, and I want to make the best of it. That bad part is that creativity is very linked to mood and emotions, so it is even harder to push yourself to do anything when you feel like this. Anything you do won't turn out right and you won't be happy with it. I sure hope something changes soon...for all of us.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I had to write it out and get it off of my chest. If I tried to talk to someone in person about it, I would probably become a weeping, slobbery mess.


Kayla said...

Enjoy your free time while it lasts. My mom is the opposite. Always going on and on about how she has way too much to do (and well she does). If you want to help with Cub Scouts at the church (which I doubt) my Mom would loooooove the help. Lol

Kitties & Cupcakes said...

Oh, my sweet Kayla. ( :

I have plenty of church stuff to keep me busy. It's just that as an adult woman, I am expected to either be a mother or work to bring in some money, and neither one of those options is working out right now.

Rickie said...

Hugs Lori! I know some days its seems like nothing will go right! I hope your tomorrow will be brighter. You have such darling designs, I know your sales will pick up. We were married 10 years before our first baby came, and I know it can be soo, soo discouraging when you know you have so much love to give--patience and faith. You're in my prayers today! Be careful what you pray for--while I was waiting for our family to grow, I prayed for something meaningful to do with my time and ended up RS pres...then life got busy!!!

Big hugs and hope your dinner tomorrow night goes well!

Lori said...

Thanks Rickie. Wow, RS pres...I will watch what I pray for. LOL
My hubby is EQ pres right now, so he is gone a lot between work and his calling. By the way, your green pearl bracelet on Etsy is yummy!