I have been in a serious funk lately, and need to get out of it. I don't really feel like creating anything. With the tanking of Etsy and the economy, I feel like giving up. I have been looking for a part time job, but so are a million other people. There are days when I really wish I had just gone to school for cosmetology. There are tons of job openings around here for hair stylists. I think I would have been good. I can't go to school for it because there isn't one close enough, and I have no idea how long we will be in this town. We haven't been able to have kids yet, and that process doesn't seem to be going anywhere. I am at a point where I really feel like I have no idea what the heck I am supposed to do with my life. I am very much stuck in limbo and feel some days like I am the main character in Ground Hog Day, where I wake up to the same thing every morning. One of my personality quirks is that if I am not being successful at something, it is really easy for me to get down and discouraged. I need to actively be involved in something, and have had the entreprenurial bug since I was a little girl. It is in my blood. I get one life here, and I want to make the best of it. That bad part is that creativity is very linked to mood and emotions, so it is even harder to push yourself to do anything when you feel like this. Anything you do won't turn out right and you won't be happy with it. I sure hope something changes soon...for all of us.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I had to write it out and get it off of my chest. If I tried to talk to someone in person about it, I would probably become a weeping, slobbery mess.